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Like Thoreau says

After years on the self-flagellation/diet/exercise  wheel, I have plenty of experience thinking about what I want, what I’m doing right and wrong and what I’ve put in my way in regards to what I’m calling PhysicalFit.  As I sat down to write a quick easy piece on my MentalFit goals, I realize I don’t think I’ve ever really done this.  I’ve read countless articles and blog posts on exercise and eating right, on setting goals for my body, on backslide and recovery.  And now I realize that I haven’t really put that effort in on the rest of  my life.  The closest I came was a few months of therapy, where the therapist told me to stop trying to do so much and that there is no shame in focusing on a couple goals right now, and saving some of the other things on my life-long-must-do list for “later.”

She was right of course and I knew it of course.  But I didn’t really listen to myself or my family when they told me the same thing – I needed to hear it from someone else.  Now, maybe it was the “someone else”; this was from a woman with a successful part-time practice who also had a good gig at a local counseling center and was in her mid-30s, happily raising two kids and, from what I could see, balancing her life very comfortably.  When SHE told me to calm down and pick somethings to focus on, putting the others on hold, it meant I was hearing approval from someone who had been to the mountain.  Or maybe I’m just stubborn and she was just the last voice among many yelling one thing: SIMPLIFY.

So I’m going to take heart at that message.  That’s my MentalFit goal.  I know that doesn’t meet the specific, measurable and reasonable qualities that goals are “supposed” to have.  That maybe the point.  Maybe I do need something more defined in practice, but for now I’m going to start by re-emphasizing the  goal I’ve always known but rarely acknowledged: SLOW DOWN and SIMPLIFY.

Night runnings

Well, I’m not perfect on the PhysicalFit goals, but today was an okay one; although I was supposed to go on a row, I ended up stuck at work.  Instead I went on a run, which I always mean to do when I cancel on a row, but I haven’t ever actually carried through with.

Turns out, if you take many months off from running, getting back into it is a little intense. :) But SkinnyDog helped motivate me and when I traded out for FluffyDog at the end, he got playful and we got to romp around for another 5 minutes instead of doing the stately slow and sweaty huff-and-puff that I call “cool down.”

SkinnyDog + FluffyDog + DH

SkinnyDog + FluffyDog + DH

I was even good AFTER the run – sat down with a glass of white (I earned it, right?!) with my late dinner and halfway through decided I didn’t really want it that bad.  So I’m chuggin’ water as we speak.  Go me!

The downside is, staying at work until 7:30 (when I don’t get compensated for any time past 5pm) isn’t really following with my MentallyFit goals.  Which I realize I have not actually spelled out, probably because I haven’t figured them out.  So that will have to be the topic of my next post, like it or not.

Don’t call it a comeback (take 2)

Well, one of those BIG THINGS happened – my thirtieth birthday.  It wasn’t awful, but that’s probably because it still hasn’t really hit me yet.  Also, I lost a bit of weight before the Big Day, and my BIL-to-be said I was looking really good lately.  (I <3 him, btw).  I had a big bad weekend at ACL, which involved lots of beers and hot dogs.  It also involved mud, obviously.

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(don't mention the Dillo Doo, I don't wanna know.)

It was great fun, but probably not for my waist.  So now that the fun times are over,

…Wait.  Before I say that, I must note that I wrote this post a week ago.  And I’ve spent the past week doing Nothing Useful with my life.  I slacked at work, ate whatever I wanted and got shitfaced on a Tuesday night (this might explain getting nothing done on Wednesday…), back to your regularly scheduled blogging….

So now that the fun times are over, it’s time to get back to reality.  I have a cruise planned for the week after Thanksgiving and that will involve the anti-Christ.  No, wait, you skinny people have another term for it – “bathing suit.”  So how will I get back on track in time for the big boat trip? The plan consists of the same shit all my plans consist of:

  • water – at least 64 oz a day
  • alcohol – twice a week i get unlimited, but i have got to stop the “one” glass of wine a night habit
  • food – breakfast taco + healthy lunch (Amy’s or leftovers) + snack (fruit or cheese or…that’s actually about it) + Dream Dinners meal (or a healthy choice at a night out); weekends will be a little looser, but I’m still gonna aim for moderation in all things rather than indulgence
  • workout – here’s the suck (well, so is the ETOH rule, but still, this is hard):
    • row 2 x per week (Monday guarantee, hope for a sub opportunity)
    • 30 day shred every day I don’t row
    • optional: If I can’t make the row, I’ll go on a run.  Use the Cool Runnings C25K, prob start on week 5.

So that’s a plan. Wait, I’m totally intimidated by that plan. Can I do this? I mean, it’s only for a month and a half right? I can do 6ish weeks, right? I know, I know, event-based weight loss is not the most sustainable plan ever, but I think if I can give myself a concrete limit, I can focus better.  And once I get started with this plan, I think I can grow to like it.

Already, I like how I feel after I workout or when I work my food plan.  Well, I like the weigh-in when I follow my food plan.  And honestly, drinking enough water makes a difference in how I feel during the day.  I think the keys are stick to ETOH limits by keeping myself busy with (1) rowing and (2) other workouts and (3) housework/dishes/laundry or any-thing-that-distracts-me-from-drinking-the-ETOH.

God bless America and hysterical foul-mouthed (keyboarded?) bloggers

I was reading FitnessFixation today and kept snorting in my laughter at work.  I’m not sure why it’s so funny when people use naughty words, but it is.  Me and 12-year-old boys the world over agree.  We used to have Potty-Mouth-Thursday (often renamed, sometimes it was “Naughty-Word-Thursday” and then, on Thursday, I often called it “Fuck-it-Thursday”) at my last job, so it seems appropriate that I link to some sailor-mouthed bloggers today.  They aren’t as easy to find as I’d hoped, but I’m doing what I can.

  • FitnessFixation
  • Blissfully Bitchy – Not enuf cussing and all about parenting, but still fun.
  • Half-Fast – A runner’s blog, also not enuf cussing, but the link takes you to a post about idiots and what might be an offensive picture about mentally handicapped owls.
  • The Amazing Adventures of DietGirl – She’s an Aussie who lives in Scotland so her cussing consists of words like “buggery” but it’s still funny.  You may also enjoy her book – I did.

Food Log – 1332 (322)

  • Breakfast: 279
  • Lunch: 278
  • Snacks: 265
  • Dinner: 511
  • Run/Walk: (322)

WID: 137.5 Woohoo!

I’m still exhausted, but I got such good news today, I feel awesome!  I got a job offer!  Finally! It’s a little stressful to have to give notice and to stay focused at my current job, but I have a feeling I’ll get over it. :)

Plus, I’m regaining the weight-loss ground (or is that re-loosing the weight-gained-ground?).  (I’m weighing-in more often to keep myself on track.  Might stick with it, might not.) I went for a brief run/walk yesterday and I did a similar easy, but sweaty bike ride today.  I’ve also changed a few of the eating habits – a very small snack in the mid-morning (60 cals) and a substantial snack at the end of the work day (200 cal protein bar).  That gives me the energy to come home, work out and not eat dinner until 7 or 8 without feeling like I’m gonna die from starvation.  So far, I’m liking this schedule.  Now I need to find out if it’s adaptable for non-standard days.

Food log – 1333 (275)

  • Breakfast: 279
  • Snack: 60
  • Lunch: 300
  • Snack: 305
  • Dinner: 390
  • Bike: 275

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